Yup I Was Some Old Pissed I Was.

  I feel I have been very blessed throughout my life. Growing up I saw and went through things no child should ever see or feel. Most people would be bitter and harbor anger from it. I chose the high road and made it strengthen me. There was no sense in pissing and moaning of what was. As an adult I have made good and bad choices. I saw them as learning experiences rather then to take it out on everyone else.       

   Some people feel better if they can bring others down to their level.   I’ve always had to clean my own doorstep off first.  Others sweep things under the rug for it’s better to not deal with them, to not feel those feelings.   I’ve never seen myself as remotely pretty, smart or a best dresser but what people do like is that I am a what you see is what you get person.  I don’t have different personas for whatever place I am in.   I don’t have everything I would like but I do have what I need to get through my days and if not then I am not unfamiliar to having to go without.   I have worked long hours just to come home and start in again.   

  I’ve never minded hard work or struggling.   I think that is better than having everything handed to me.   At least I know I have worked for it even if the work was only sweat.   I was made to retire sooner than I wanted to.  I’ve gained weight, I’ve lost weight.   I’ve been in pain and I’ve worked through it.   I’ve never been perfect and never will be, however I am a happy person and that is a choice one makes no matter what is thrown at them.   One either plays the blame game or they change their way of thinking.   So anyone who wants to run me down just to make themselves feel better, they had better clean their own door step off first. You may just find there is more dirt on yours than mine.